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My love feeds on your love…

May 28, 2008

If I look
at the white moon,
if I touch
near the old branch
the wrinkled leaf,
if I hear the sound of air,
if I think of the sarcasm in ur voice,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists
were little boats that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me…Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
shall I stop loving you little by little??

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
do you think
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land???

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
my love, my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love,
and as long as you live,
it will be in your arms
without leaving mine…

At the end of the day….what all I’ve got is one more question… « Sunayana’s Weblog

January 15, 2008

Its been almost a year since I wrote my last blog …I had written a blog on 25th of february, 2007…During this one year’s time I was busy with my last sem exams…then came to Pune…Did a lil struggle to get a job offcampus. Got a very nice job…n finally, one of my dreams came true…I started workin as a software engineer…Everythin seems to be the way I wanted…but somewhere, deep down in the core of my being, I am unstatisifed…If I sit face to face with myself and ask a few questions…then I come across the same answers..Yes, this is not the destination, the level I am at….I want to move further…I want to fly higher…There are plenty of things I want to achieve…I want a new perspective on life! But… what and how ?? and why can’t I clearly figure things out??

Well…I keep on struggling with my strong emotions… but that’s of no use…I know I was never this much confused…Confusion…regardin what? My carrer?? No…its my life which always bugs me! Am I happy? Yes, if I’ll see it from the point of view of a career oriented girl…I don’t hav any reason to sound so dull…I am into a gud job…After a year or two, I’ll switch to some other company…higher salary…gud designation…I mean…everythin is fine…isn’t it?

Is this all for me?? No…I want much more than this from my life….and I don’t hav the option of sittin quiet and just hopin for everythin to be the way I always wanted…Life has to give me what I have longed for…but I don’t know when…this is somethin on which I don’t hav any control…This is what that makes me feel frustrated at times…Why can’t I decide for myself?? Why can’t I plan the order of how things happen in my life…

I know this won’t lead me anywhere…I will keep on annoyin myself by askin these questions….I know what do I want from life…but this helplessness will kill me someday…Sometimes I think I should stop thinkin…havin a complex mind just adds into increased complexity in life…Why not to think like a normal girl….why not to go through the same stages of life of a normal girl…Study…Job…Marriage…children… Simple…huh? Why do I hav a typical way of thinkin…why can’t I be like a normal girl…why do I need to be so matured…why?

Well…again…no answers…I know this time I don’t hav any answer to these questions….